Santa Cruz Weekend! ♡

Ahhh, Okay okay I know I am the worst blogger ever. This is from 2 weekends ago and I am just getting around to posting :(

It is so hard to find a balance between school, work, blogging, trying to maintain a social life, etc. The struggle is real. And I know I shouldn’t make excuses. I am trying, I promise!

Anyways, hope you guys enjoy this outfit! xo <3

What I’m wearing:

Glasses: QUAY Australia

Denim Jacket: Nordstrom

Sweater: American Eagle

Jeans: Express

Shoes: American Eagle


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Because In Leaving You, I Learned To Love Me Again

I always wondered if I was ever going to get back to normal, if I was ever going to be the person I used to be. Relationships should make your life happier. They should add value to your life and make you a better or a happier person, or actually make you both.

When dating the right person you get all the love you deserve, but what happens when you date the ‘wrong’ guy?

For far too long, I thought I was happy. I thought I was being treated with respect, with the same genuine love I knew I deserved. I was ashamed to admit I wasn’t strong enough to save myself.

I dated someone who made me lose my self-worth.

I dated someone who made me lose my self-confidence.

I forgot how to be happy. Because I was always worried about what to say or do. I always felt like the dumb person in the room, the stereotypical “California girl”, and you made me feel this way. Not just your friends.

You never bothered to lead a normal conversation with me and after some time I stopped asking questions or trying to engage you in conversation.

I dated someone who I thought I knew.

I strongly believed he’s not like that; he couldn’t be.

I would never fall for a such a guy. I kept thinking it was just a phase and it’ll be over soon.

I dated someone who I didn’t really know.

Because you never showed me your true-self. I wanted you to be the man I thought you were. I constantly waited for you to be the guy I had created in my head and maybe this is the reason I stayed too long.

I trusted that there was something good in you and that you genuinely loved me.

I dated someone who now makes me question everyone.

Just because you were bad, I let myself be fooled that every person will be the same as you. It’s not fair.

I am too afraid to let anybody in my life because I am terrified of getting my heartbroken.

I dated someone who I let manipulate me.

Whenever you’d ignore me, I thought I deserved it. You made me believe I was to blame for everything.

At the end, I was always the crazy, obsessive one.

You would always say that you “needed space” when you lived half-way across the fucking world (literally) how much space could you need.

But I would give it to you, because I wanted to make you happy. I thought that was normal.

Ugh. I hated myself for being such a nice person. I stopped smiling at strangers and I became less and less the bubbly person that I used to be.

But at the end of the day,

I dated someone who made me stronger. 

Because I felt strong enough to walk from you. Because I left you, I feel there is nothing now that could bring me down. I’ve been though hell and I’ve made it.

I found the strength to be the old me, to greet people with a smile, to love little kids and to play with dogs I stumble upon on the street.

I feel like the funniest person in the world and my friends and family enjoy having me, the true me, back.

Because of where I was before, I am strong enough to love again (eventually) and I am brave enough to stand up for myself.

Because I brushed everything aside, loved you with everything in me, and that didn’t make you love me back, showed me I could survive only on my love. 

Because in leaving you, I learned how strong I am.

Because in leaving you, I learned to love me again. 


When The Timing Is Right

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If you were to ask me what I struggle with most in life, it’s trusting in God’s timing and His magnificent plan for me.

Not being able to see where the road I am currently on will lead to, can erupt feelings of apprehension within me. When this happens I try my hardest to rest assure in the simple fact that God has every aspect of my life planned out to a “t”.

This alone puts my unsteady heart at ease.

I have been through a lot this past year, granted not as bad as most people have been put through. But nonetheless, life gets tough.

From my personal experiences in life, there have been countless times when I thought I had traveled too far off from the path that God had laid out for me, or I had started to believe there was no way I would get through a particular hardship.

I’ve dealt with heartbreak, from losing a loved one, all the while, trying to get through finals week and pass my classes. Wondering. Praying to God that He knew the answer. That there had to be a reason all of this was happening right now.

In each and every one of these circumstances, God pulled through with His glorious plan, replacing whatever I had lost with something far greater than I could’ve ever fathomed.

The sooner you realize that God works in His time, and not yours, the quicker you will be able to fully trust in Him.

I’m also a firm believer that, while not everything happens for a reason that we can understand, God promises that He will be with us through it all in order to help us through it.

You may not understand today or even tomorrow, but eventually God will reveal to you why you went through everything you did.

Don’t mistake God’s patience for His absence. His timing is perfect, and His presence is constant.

The most important lesson I’ve learned is how much God transforms you in your time of waiting for His plan. Waiting deepens and matures us, levels our perspective, and broadens our understanding.

Whether God grants you with a much desired “yes“, a merciful “no“, or faith-building “not yet“, remember that when you don’t hear an answer, God is simply telling you “trust me“.


“When the time is right, I, the Lord, will make it happen” Isaiah 60:22

My ULTIMATE Break Up Playlist: From Weepy to Empowered to Downright Angry.


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So you’ve had a breakup, are going through a breakup, or just wanna be a boss ass bitch? I’ve got the playlist for you. I made this playlist a few months ago when I was heartbroken/devastated & it seriously helped me get through the process 10x better…it is amazing what music can do.

Throughout this playlist, you will feel good, hysterically cry, and most likely still be sad by the end of it.

But hey, now one ever said breakups are fun right? Right.

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So grab some wine, tune-in, and get ready to sing your pretty little heart out.

ALSO, I know if you are going through a breakup, being alone, in your room, is all you probably wanna do…

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but TRUST ME this playlist is 10x better when you can sing it out with your girlfriends and get embarrassingly drunk at home.

+ they are there to stop you from making the mistake of drunk texting him.

OKAY okay, you don’t have to be drunk listening to this playlist. This is just what I did….no shame.

At the end of the day, just remember that you will get through this, you are a badass, and that guy that fucked you over….well just know that he is 10/10 stalking your Insta and wishing he had you back, k? K.

—-> Click here for the ultimate breakup playlist <—-



Is Chivalry Dead? Or Do I Just Like To Meet Assholes. 

So here’s the story…

I went out with my friends the other night, went to a few bars, had a few drinks. And the last bar we ended up at…well let’s just say that the bartender was VERY easy to look at. Like I don’t think my friends and I have ever been in that much of a trance.

Now, first off, I am not the type of girl who likes to talk to guys when I go out, I actually prefer to be left alone and have a dance party with just me and my friends. RARE occasion if I actually take the time to try to talk to anyone, let alone a guy.

+ Being newly single still frightens me and I am just not ready for that yet.

SO, you know he had to be very cute (Blue eyes and dark hair) to be exact, and well he was very easy to talk to + seemed like a nice enough guy. Also mentioned that he had been learning the piano to play his mother a song…at that point he just had permission to have my children. Too far?

Okay okay.

We ended up exchanging numbers and we did what every other person does in this generation now and started texting right away. (Actually so annoyed by this generation BTW).

Anyways, he had said the night we met that he wanted to take me out. So I was like aww okay sounds nice. Movie. Dinner. Perfect.

We had planned for Saturday Night.

We had met earlier in the week, so I had a little time to text him and get to know him a little before we met up next.

The day after we had met, he had texted me and he seemed very sweet still so I was like okay this looks like a good sign. Go drunk me.

Another day passed and he had texted me saying that he had a dream about me. Cute? Creepy? Or just straight up weird. Like hi I met you once for maybe 2 hours. But I was too worried about his blue eyes to even think that his dreaming about me was indeed very creepy.


So Saturday rolls around and he still hadn’t mentioned plans of any sort, so I had to be the one to be like “sooooo any plans for the night?”

I got a reply of “Yeah you can come to my house and play Mario”….wait….what.

I mean don’t get me wrong, Mario is cool and all but like yeah I just met you dude I am not about to go to your house.

I began to politely tell him that I could meet him downtown and we could do dinner or something. Which he then replied that he had work that night.

So basically, he wanted me to come over and play Mario during the day at his house…………………………..

Uh no.

I declined, which any girl in their right mind would have after only meeting a guy ONCE. We decided Sunday night would work better since he apparently had work Saturday night which he never once mentioned.

Anyways, it’s now Sunday and we were supposed to meet up later in the night for drinks now.

I guess dinner just got thrown out the window all of a sudden since I didn’t want to go to his house…


So we agreed we would meet up later after the concert I was going to that night.

He said it was no problem and that he would see me later.

So a few hours goes by and I get a text…. “Hey I can’t drive downtown I am super drunk..”

No big deal right? Like that’s what those amazing Lyft and Uber apps can do for you now. Which is exactly what I had told him.

He continued to respond by saying, “I drive downtown everyday, so you can come to my house..”

What part of I just met you and am not coming to your house don’t you understand.

Is taking a girl out to dinner just not a thing anymore or?

At this point I am just laughing at the amount of excuses this guy has to try to get me to his house. I decide to be brutally honest and tell him that I am not like other girls he has met and am not going to go his house after meeting him one night.

“I met you once ha not trying to have sex with you” was his brilliant response.


By this point, I had decided that he was just an asshole bartender who wanted to get into my pants and thought playing Mario would really get me goin.

AND after all of that, (I didn’t reply to his last text by the way), he decides to text me the next morning and say “When can I see you?”. Like do you not have a brain at all. I GAVE YOU A CHANCE LAST NIGHT.

Moral of the story: I HATE “DATING”.

Which I mean technically, I guess this was not a form of dating since we never actually got to the point of hanging out.

But I hate how this generation thinks that “hanging out” at their house is a good idea for a first date.

I think it is a lame excuse and I am sick of guys thinking that every girl wants to sleep with them.

NEWSFLASH we don’t.

We would actually just be very happy with a dinner date. Make it exciting. Make it unique. IT’S NOT THAT HARD.

This generation is so lazy.

So, call me “too picky” or “stuck up” but I am not going to settle for playing Mario at your house as a first “date”, no matter how hot you are.




Yes, I’ve Changed.

Everybody changes. You learn, you grow, you experience new things.

Everything you encounter has some sort of effect on you. It’s just how life is. 

For the most part, these changes happen subtly over the course of a few years. Slow enough that you barely even notice.

But this past year, I’ve changed the most. So much to the point that the phrase “You’ve changed”, has been used towards me. Which, I never know whether or not to take that positively or negatively.

This past year has tested my limits, made me soar, and sent me crashing to the ground. I cried more, laughed more, and spent a lot of days in confusion.

My heart got broken. I lost friends. And I learned that sometimes those “that’ll never happen to me” situations, may actually happen to you.

I also realized that I have the most incredible friends and family, who have taught and inspired me more than I could have possibly imagined. They make sure I don’t take life too seriously, but push me to work hard every day. They are there for every ab hurting laugh and every heartbreaking cry.

I had to figure out how to let people in, while also stitching up my wounds on my own. It wasn’t easy and I spent time questioning every move I made. But I don’t regret a thing. I can’t. 

I’ve learned too much and experienced too many important things, to look back and say, “I really wish I could take that back”.

Am I proud of my decisions? No. Did I say and do things I probably shouldn’t have? Yes. Don’t we all. But that’s what helped me grow.

And it was all worth it.

Who I am now isn’t afraid to make mistakes, as long as I learn from them. I thought I was strong then, but I’m even stronger now. I know how to listen to my heart without completely ignoring my mind.

I’ve learned how to let things go and not bottle up all of my emotions. To be open to new experiences and people, and make those around me feel appreciated.

With every loss, I’ve gained something new. I’m still so young. I haven’t figured it all out. I’m still going to make stupid mistakes. And life is still going to test my limits.

And that’s okay. 

So yes, I have changed. And quite frankly, I am proud of this change.

I am on a journey to be the best version of me possible. Whoever that may be. Only the future knows.


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‘WISH’ App Clothing Try-On..

So for awhile now I have been seeing the ‘WISH’ app ads pop up ALL over my Facebook feed, showcasing the CUTEST clothes ever. BUT, I was so skeptical, thinking okay the quality of these clothes has to be horrible because prices are so cheap. We are talking $4 cheap.

I decided that I needed to try it for myself and do a little trial and error for you guys.

Here’s the lowdown…


To be honest, I was so expecting the quality to be a lot worse than it ended up being! It honestly is not bad considering what you are paying for it. You can’t expect Nordstrom quality (obvi) but definitely in comparison to something you would purchase at Forever 21. I honestly can’t complain much about the quality, I am very satisfied with it for what I paid.


Sizes run fairly small. I ordered up a size on each item and they ended up fitting perfectly. So if you plan on ordering anything, order up a size of what you would normally wear! I usually wear size small, so I ordered medium in everything and it was the perfect fit.


Affordable to the max. Right up this college girl’s alley. Almost too good to be true. Below each piece I have listed the price of everything I purchased. My grand total ended up being: $47.00, that’s shipping costs + tax. Mind Blown.


Since it is coming from China, you do have to wait around 2 weeks to get everything. Costs for shipping is only around $2-$4 and you are able to track your package which for me is crucial. I am like a little kid in a candy store when I am waiting for my packages to arrive.


YES! You could say I am ‘Wish’ obsessed. It is a little dangerous because everything is so cheap that I just end up spending hours and hours picking out clothes and think I am spending no money. Until I can afford high quality clothing, this will do when I am in a niche for some new, cute clothes.

Below are the pieces I got & cost of each item:

~The Cutest Pants Ever~

I really hit the jackpot with these. SO cute for everyday + work. I am going to be purchasing them in every color, most likely…oops.

Cost: $4.25

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~Striped Shirt~

This “shirt” was supposed to be an off the shoulder dress…but that definitely was not the case. Way too short to be a dress/ way too tight to wear off the shoulder. But it does make for a cute, casual shirt! I also am OBSESSED with the back detail.

Cost: $6.40

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~White Shirt~

I need a beach day in this shirt! How cute would this look in a cute beach town. I absolutely love it.

Cost: $5.00 

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~Stripe & Lace Dress~

For some reason this dress just gives me old 50’s vibes and I love it. I think it would be so cute to wear wine tasting or just around the city on a nice, summer day!

Cost: $6.40

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~White Romper~

Another piece I would love to have a beach day in! I think it is so cute and perfect for a day at the beach. Can you tell I really want to go to the beach?

Cost: $7.70

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~Denim Dress~

I love this denim dress for an every day look. Such a good staple to have in your closet for the summer time!

Cost: $4.75

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Happy shopping! XO 

Wannabe Wine Tasting Outfit

Does this outfit not just SCREAM Wine Tasting?!

Plot twist: I didn’t actually go wine tasting (sadly) but I was thinking about it the whole time.


Dress: Steal about 4 years ago, I am pretty sure from KOHLS

Jacket: AMERICAN EAGLE. I think throwing a cute jacket like this around your waist when wearing the right dress or a pair of shorts brings such a fun vibe to an outfit

Hat: Picked this up at TARGET while I was out wearing this outfit and it totally brought everything together


Ta-Da! xo


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